I’m suddenly so overcome with everything that I feel like the world has literally just stopped around me, I can’t sense anything other than myself, slowly breathing. I’m intrigued and terrified and I don’t want to make any of movements because i’m scared the serenity will fade. My head is spinning and my whole life just stopped being so real, so distant. Stop.
I am dreaming, I’m sure of it. If I hadn’t just started to hear the slow movement of you next to me I’d be positive that this is all pretend, that I’ll wake up and it’ll all be gone, you’ll be gone.
I’m consumed in thoughts of you and I don’t like the dependence anymore. I’m terrified of loving you and love in general.
In the span of 30 seconds, I went from calm, stagnic to anxious and afraid. I don’t know where I am anymore.